In My Daughter's Eyes...

I still remember the quiet evening... sitting in my glider in the Solana's room, nursing her for one of the last times. I was staring at her, thinking about life, thinking "can I do this? Will I be a good mom? Will she always know how much I love her?" and this song came on the radio....

In my daughter's eyes I am a hero

I am strong and wise and I know no fear

But the truth is plain to see

She was sent to rescue me

I see who I wanna be

In my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal

Darkness turns to light and the world is at peace

This miracle God gave to me

gives me strength when I am weak

I find reason to believe In my daughter's eyes

And when she wraps her hand around my finger

Oh it puts a smile in my heart

Everything becomes a little clearer

I realize what life is all about

It's hangin' on when your heart has had enough

It's giving more when you feel like giving up

I've seen the light

It's in my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes

I can see the future

A reflection of who I am and what will be

Though she'll grow and someday leave

Maybe raise a family

When I'm gone I hope you see how happy

she made me

For I'll be there

In my daughter's eyes

I've always wanted to be someone's mom... but I had no idea how I can love a little soul so much. I had no idea I had this much love in me. She makes me want to be a better person. I am different now because I know that she will always be looking at me, and everything I do will shape her to become the person she is.

My favourite line is, "When I'm gone I hope you see how happy she made me, For I'll be there in my daughter's eyes".

NOW I understand what Martina was talking about.

Solana... when you read this... know that mommy loves you with every piece of my soul. I'll hold your hand for a little while, but your heart forever. MUAH!