My baby turned two... two months, that is!

I can't believe how fast our little girl is growing. The other day I looked back at her one month old pictures, and couldn't believe how different she looked. When did this all happen? She's just growing so fast! She is so smiley and happy. We've joined Kanga Bounce at the YMCA. I LOVE it! Not only do I get a great workout, but Solana and I get to share special Mommy/Daughter time together. During our cooldown, I just love being head to head on the mats with her. It's like she's laughing at me. LOVE IT!

We brought her on her second road trip. Not bad! 2 months old and she's already got two roadies under her belt! She did great! We headed off to Sudbury to stay with Emily and Thomas. It was such a relaxing weekend.


On Sunday, we left Leo and Tom with Solana to watch some football.
She's discovered TV too! Uh oh!

On Tuesday, Solana had her two month shots. It was so hard to watch my little girl get poked and proded. At needle time, I had to distract her, Leo had to hold her legs down, and the two nurses counted to three and poked each leg. If Solana could talk.. this is her play by play.
"Hi Mommy"
"Look, I have a big smile"
"Smilessssss... OUch!"
"Hmmmm... what was that"
"OUCHHHH!!!!"
"MOMMY!!!!!!"

It was heartbreaking! I picked her up, and then she stoped crying.... looking around at everyone. Then... it really hit her! Ooooohhh that cry! And yes, I did cry too.

When the nurse was examining her, I told her about Solana's belly button, asking if it's normal for her to have an "innie" sometimes, and an "outie" others. After checking around, we find out that it might be a hernia! A hernia? My baby has a hernia? We have an appointment to see a surgeon next month... yes... i cried again :)

Leo has been off work for almost two weeks, so he was able to spend a lot of daddy time with her. It was killer watching him have to go back to work (well... I didn't really watch... I'm one sleepy mommy at 4am!


I can't wait to see what the next month of Solana's life will be bringing us. Her smile is constant now, her cries are changing to baby cries, rather than newborn cries, she loves to "talk" to us. What will this month bring?

Coffee and a pregnancy test... or more.

Today I'm having flashbacks of the morning I told Leo that he was going to be a dad. It's a good thing I wrote this down a few days later, because I didn't remember all the details.. here it is...


I remember waking up that morning, with instincts to go buy a test. I told Leo that I was going to get a coffee (didn’t want to get his hopes up). He asked for one too which meant that I had to actually go and get coffees. I bought the coffee’s first and then two pregnancy tests. I remember feeling like a guilty teenager when I was paying for them. Hahaha.

Upon my return I tiptoed around the house and took one test. It immediately came back positive. Thinking I did something wrong I tried for the second test. But I couldn’t pee. So after drinking about 3 glasses of water I took another test. It came back positive too. I remember sitting on the bathroom floor, crying, at the thought that is could be true. Happy but scared at the same time. I walked into the bedroom, woke Leo up saying “You better drink my coffee too” In his delirium, he asks “Why”? My response “Because you can’t drink coffee when you are pregnant”. He shot up in bed. Stared… and put his arms around me!

I remember immediately calling the doctor for an appointment… couldn’t get in till next week… calling the walk in… they don’t do tests… the nurse told me that if my test came back positive then I am pregnant… I remember saying “So I’m having a baby” She says “Yes my dear, you are having a baby”. I contemplated faking being sick and going to the ER for a blood test. For some reason I just wouldn’t believe it.

After talking to Leo I felt like I had to take another test. So this time I went to A&P and bought two more (I didn’t want to look like an idiot at the drugstore ) I came home, peed in a cup… the first test.. positive… the second.. NEGATIVE! What???

I called back to the group health… made an appointment for Wednesday. In the meantime I picked up two more tests from a nurse friend of mine… came home… downed 2 more glasses of water.. peed in a cup… and both NEGATIVE. I was crushed. Cried. Slept. For two hours. I went to work that night knowing that I wasn't pregnant. After work I picked up two more tests.

On Wednesday morning, I took the tests as soon as I woke up. I remember sitting there and staring while the lines came back positive. I walked away, trying to hold in the disappointment, convincing mysel, we'll just keep trying. After I finished getting ready for the day, I went back to the bathroom to throw the tests in the garbage... Low and behold… POSITIVE, twice!


So, let's count them up

2...

2...

2...

2



Yup... that's right... 8 tests later, I FINALLY believed it. What a thrill! I guess the reason why I came back with negatives, was because after so many tests and so many glasses of water... I was actually peeing out only water... hahaha! What an idiot I am!



We thought of ways to tell our loved ones. This is what we came up with...




Thinking back to the days we got to spread our news... till now... What a wonderful life :)

Poor Baby

Solana is sick. The whole family is sick (I love saying that... family... cause now we are a family). Although I feel for Leo's cough, and I feel like my head is going to explode, it kills me to see her cry with a snotty nose. It's crazy to know that I've figured out her cries. There's the "feed me now... like right now.. like this instant "cry; the "Get this crappy diaper off of me "cry; the "ahhhh... i don't want to play this game anymore!" cry; the"oh mommy, I'm sooooo tired" cry; and then there's the "I don't feel good" cry. And this is the cry that breaks my heart. She gets that look on her face, and pouts out her bottom lip, and then the C....R... Y....follows. I shed a tear every time.

We'll be going to the doctors tomorrow to get some tips on clearing out a snotty nose ;) and deal with this pooping issue we've discovered. (I never thought I'd be someone to be so happy to see, as well as visually disect POOP)

(This is Solana's

"Feed me now" cry!)

Quick!!!! Get that bottle!!!

QUICK!!!!

Meanwhile, between the crying fits, she's learned to smile. And I shed a tear at each smile too! (Come to think of it, I'm a tearful person these days... lol) I've yet to be able to catch one of those gorgeous full fledge smiles on camera (Damn delay on these digitals), but I'm going to keep on trying ;)

I love watching her with daddy. They have a bond like no other. I fall in love all over, everytime I see them together. He talks to her all the time, and I love listening to them when they have no idea I can hear them. I look forward to watching them run around in the backyard together, or catching snoozes on the couch :)

Daddy and Solana, having a morning chat.

The day my life began...

(My first moment with my little girl)

She came into our world at 2:35am, July 18, 2009, weight 8lbs 8oz, 20 1/4 inches long. Unlike her mother, Solana is very punctual. Arrived bright eyed, and curious on her due date. Nothing prepared me for what was to come. I continuously told others, that no matter what your read, nothing can prepare you for life with your first child.

I remember sitting in the hospital room, just her and I after Daddy went home to wash up, staring at this beautiful little girl, yet for some reason, I didn't recognize her as my daughter. That sounds so terrible to say. I don't know if it was feeling traumatized from such a long labour, or the fear of the unknown future, or being so worried about every breath she took (not that I should have worried, because she was just fine) but staring at her on this Saturday afternoon, the world stood still. Then she started to stir. Then she started to cry. Then I looked around. "It's just you and me" is what I thought. I picked her up, and rocked her, as if I rocked her a million times before. And that is when it happened. She opened her eyes and stared right into mine, and I said "there you are, I see you". And my heart melted. To this day, my heart melts over and over again.

(Solana's one month birthday cupcake)

I can't believe that Solana will be two months old on Friday. I feel like I've been doing this forever. I can't believe how much I have learned already. It hasn't been easy. I am pretty paranoid, second guessing every move, but only because I love her so. I feel like I've grown into a woman in the last 8 weeks. A woman who is no longer afraid of anything, because I have a little one to show the world to. So many hard decisions have been made already. I can't believe how difficult of a decision it was to choose to stop breastfeeding!

I am one very lucky girl. I have the husband any woman would dream of. I hope and pray that Solana will find someone in her life that makes her just as happy as he makes me. I couldn't ask for a better family, or better friends. I count my blessings everyday, and am so happy that I can finally track all the memories through this blog.