Saturday, June 5, 2010

Saying Goodbye...

It is 5:30 in the morning of the day we move out of our first home and into a new one. Right now, Daddy is sleeping on a mattress in the middle of what was once our living room as I sit up thinking about our last three years here. We've kept you away from all the moving preparations by spending a few days at Nana & Nono's and Grandma & Grandpa's house. You'll have a blast I'm sure, coming into a new house that is ready for a crawling, walking, happy baby.

As anyone can tell you, and I'm sure you will soon learn, Mommy is a pretty sentimental and emotional person, so leaving this place brings a lot of sadness to my heart. Don't get me wrong, I am beyond happy to get into the new house where there is tons of room for you to play, but saying goodbye to this old place, will take a few tears because of all the memories we've made here.


Daddy and I bought this house just a few months before our wedding day. The minute we stepped foot into it, we knew that this is the place we wanted to spend our first years together, and hopefully start a family here. It had so much character and charm. It reminded me of a real life doll house (not that I've ever owned a doll house, but if I had, I probobly would have liked it).
On the day that we got the keys to the house, we invited some friends over for our first ever Corona Party that used to take place every Friday night on our teeny tiny deck. Sitting around with friends, and jamming to a guitar in the middle of the night, was my one of my most favourite thing. Actually, it still is. That first night, all we had in our home was a mattress and a TV sitting in the middle of the lisving room floor. Funny how things have turned full circle as three years later, we are laying in the middle of the living room floor, with a TV to watch.Very, and I mean VERY shortly after Daddy and I got married, I got the "I want a baby" itch. To put a bit of a hold on that, Daddy thought it would be a great idea to start a fur family first. When we went to the Humane Society to pick out a kitten, we came home with two! Our first little family :)Well, the "I want a baby" itch came back pretty quickly, and this time, Daddy couldn't be happier. At a New Year's Eve party at our house, we were finally able to announce to the world that we were expecting a baby!!!I was very lucky to have a wonderful, healthy pregnancy. And to this day, I sometimes still miss carrying you in my belly. Getting your room ready was so much fun since Daddy and I worked in it together, preparing to bring our child home. I LOVE your nursery! I can't tell you that enough. There are so many precious moments spent here.Here we go! I laboured at home for quite a few hours before heading to the hospital. Being in the comfort of my own home, with Daddy and Nana, made things a bit more bearable (but just a bit...) And here you were! I remember walking up the stairs with you, and lying you in your crib for the very first time. You were so very tiny. I couldn't ever imagine how you'd grow into it. As I've written about before, things were a bit stressful after we brought you home. There were nights that the three of us stayed up for hours. You crying your little heart out, me crying right along with you, and Daddy trying to console his two girls. Taking pictures was his way of making me laugh. It worked. But even though the nights brought a lot of anxiety and sleepless nights, you were so precious and could calm me with just a look in your eyes. You loved being in your swing in the living room...and could fall asleep on Daddy's chest in a heartbeat. My favourite moments of those first days were when I'd walk into a room and find you and Daddy cuddled up taking a well deserved snooze. Bath times was one of my favourite times with you (and you obviously loved them too!). I used to bathe you in your little tub in the middle of your nursery floor. This is a picture of our first trip out (and first selfie) as a family. You were only a week old at the time, and Daddy and I decided we needed to buy you your first dress. At only 4 weeks old, you were already so strong. This is one of our very favourite pictures of you. Doing your very first Tummy Time on your bedroom floor.


Two months old, and holding yourself up in the bumbo chair. We used to prop you on the coffee table and just marvel at how cute you were! Such a sweet little baby.

Getting ready for our first walk together to Bellvue Park. My favourite season has always been fall, but at our house, it was even better. I am really going to miss the sight of the old trees that we have surrounding our yard. (It just REALLY sucked raking up those leaves!)

3 months old, playing with Daddy in the living room.

Your baptism was a great day! Getting you all dressed up in your gown on Mommy and Daddy's bed.

Staring out the window, checking out our first real snowfall with Daddy. This year we put the Christmas tree up in the Dining Room.

I loved having you watch me get ready for my day while playing in my bed. We had some funny times in here. You always knew just how to make mommy giggle.

Your first taste of cereal from a spoon. You LOVED it! If I only knew then how messy of an eater you'd become! Ha!

Your first Christmas in our house. We did a mommy-made photo shoot underneith the Christmas tree. (Could you be ANY cuter?)

You were such a good helper when it came to doing the laundry. The trek from the basement to our bedrooms upstairs with a baby and laundry basket in tow was a little too difficult for my liking, so we improvised.

Learning to crawl at almost 6 months old! You were a little speedster in the kitchen going back and forth!

Sitting up in the living room playing with your bucket of toys.

You learned to pull yourself up and cruise the furniture pretty quickly. Yet another photo shoot as we head to our first swimming lessons together.

Easter Brunch in our Dining Room. As you can see, pics in the dining room were few and far to come by. As you will soon figure out, Mommy is NOT a good cook!

At 8 months old, helping Mommy get breakfast ready in the kitchen.
What a good little helper you are!

You've always loved bath time. In this particular picture, as I was getting you ready in your bedroom, you b-lined to the washroom to watch Daddy get your bath ready. I'm sure you were squaking at him to hurry it up!

We always spent most of our time playing in the living room. My mornings with you are always my favourite. It didn't matter what kind of sleep you and I had, or how the morning had started off, because playing in your PJ's, or scooting around the house, you always had that smile on your face.
Funny faces. At 10 months old, it is already easy to see your sense of humour!
Helping Mommy pack (or should I say UN-pack) the tupperware.
SOLD! You obviously look very happy about it, but I have to say, I had some really mixed feelings about it. I am so excited to move into our next home together. It will be the home where you master your walking techniques (already taking your first steps at 10 months old). It is where you will spend your first summer playing outside. It's where you'll learn to run, and learn to explore. It's where you'll probobly learn how to ride a bike, and so many exciting things. You will more than likely grow up in this next home, and we'll make so many amazing memories there as a family. But I am sad to say goodbye to this house. From the first night sleeping on the mattress on our living room floor, to the last. Daddy and I have shared so many ups and downs together here, and this is where we experienced your first year of life. I think what makes me sad the most, is that you will not remember. You will not be able to look back upon all the times that we spent here. But, I guess that's why I write. So that you will have a glimpse of the happy times that we spent here. Our little family (plus Chloe and Spaz).I'm not sure if you can make it out in this picture or not, but this is a picture of the mirror above the couch in our living room. Your handprints are marked on the mirror from you making faces on it. Your handprints are all over this home. You've made your mark here, and I can't wait to have you make your mark on the new house too!
Love you baby girl!

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Mother's Day... almost

Where has the time gone. You, my baby girl, are 9 and a half months old already. It feels like just yesterday that we came home as a family together for the first time. Life is just amazing. You are amazing.


You know, everywhere I go, people are always talking to me about you. I'm sure the fact that I post so many pictures and video's of you on facebook lends a hand to that, but I just can't help it. I mean, we must be doing something right because you are such a happy little person! You are by far the funniest person that I have every met. You have such a big personality for such a little girl. You are kind and sensitive, yet you laugh when you fart (You must get that from your father).

It completely amazes me every single day how smart you are. I find myself saying "How did you do that!" on a daily basis!

Let's see...
  • You are at the point now that you will no longer let me feed you. It's like you have this big girl personality when you are with me, as if to say "Mommy, I'm a big girl now"... yet with Daddy, it's as if you're saying "oh Daddy, just one more spoonful".
  • My most favourite time of day is when you and I are cuddling in bed together. We usually take a morning nap together every day, and to watch you squirm awake, reach over to me, toss your head on my chest, and then look up and give me that signature smile, just melts my heart.
  • You are a moving machine, and lately your favourite game is getting to the top of the stairs as quickly as you can! (you even get mad when you notice that we are holding on to your shirt, just in case).
  • You play peek-a-boo through your playpen all the time, and you lift up your shirt so that we can give you razberries on your belly!
  • You shake your head side to side as if saying NOOOOO, with a big ol' grin on your face.
  • You love to eat! Carrots, peas, corn, and YOGURT are your favourites.
  • You cry when I get frustrated with you, and then I give you a million mommy kisses to make up for it.
  • You've also learned how to give your very own Solana kisses. Whether it's good morning kisses, or random "I need to stop playing so I can give momma a kiss" kiss, I cherish each one. Sometimes, when I'm pacing around the house talking on the phone with you on my hip, you'll continuously plant those open mouth kisses on my cheek. I can't help but giggle every time.
  • And you talk! Oh how you TALK! And one day, I'll stop translating for you because I'll know exactly what you're saying :)
  • You get so shy around people that you haven't seen for the last 24 hours which makes me think that you are a master of disguise ;)
  • and did I mention that you laugh when you fart?
Lately, I've been thinking a lot about our future together. What kind of relationship do we need now, in order for us to have a great one in the future. I remind myself of that every day to keep myself in check. It's so easy to get caught up in the day to day activities, and forget about what the goal is here. I mentioned the whole eating issue. It took me forever to realize that you and I were just in a power struggle. I wanted to feed you, you swatted away the spoon. I wanted to feed you, you screamed. I wanted to feed you, you fed the cats with oatmeal on the floor. I had to stop and think. I wanted you to eat. So I gave you food that you could eat yourself, and VOILA!
I think that was the first time that I had to let go, and watch you try it on your own. And you did great.
Lesson #1785 of motherhood: Let them try it on their own, and be there if it doesn't work out, but most important, be there when it does.

Our first Mother's Day is coming up and I'm truly starting to realize how lucky and blessed I am to have someone like you in my life. A daughter. I beautiful girl, who lets momma put headbands in her hair. I look forward to the day that I can braid your hair, and then the day that you will braid mine (I guess I'll have to work on growing it out first.)
I look forward to the day that you tell me about what your cousin Dallas did, or how you met your first best friend.
I look forward to the day that I watch Daddy give you a little push on your bike without the training wheels, and the day I put the bandage on your knee if you fall over.
I look forward to the day that I'll be laying in a boat, reading a book and catching some rays, while you and Daddy sing "here fishy, fishy", hooking worms onto a line.
I look forward to the day that I watch you sing in a school play, and the day that you tell me about your first crush.
I look forward to the day that you swim your first lap, score your first goal, get your first home run (or whatever you want to do).
I'll look forward to the day that you go to highschool, your first job, your first love.
I look forward to the day that you cry on my shoulder when a boy breaks your heart, and I'll tell you about my heart. (and then I'll send Daddy after him)

I can keep going... on and on and on and on. We are going to share so many laughs, so many cries, and so many stories. If you are this amazing now, I can just imagine how amazing you will be in all that you do.

Most importantly, I look forward to the nights that you and I will share, lying together in my bed, just as we do now. With you telling me a story about what's going on in your life, and I'll tell you one of mine.

I promise you this, Solana, I will do whatever it takes to have that relationship with you. You are the light of my soul. My sunshine. My heart. I can't imagine what life would be without you in it, and I cherish every minute of each day with you.

Thank you for making me such a happy mommy!

Love you baby girl!

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Bumps and Bruises


Ugh. You CRIED. And I held you and said... "shhh... it's okay Baby. Mommy's right here with you. Shhhh... Everything is going to be okay."


Once you were left to just sniffles... it was mommy's turn to cry. Wow. Watching you get your first true bump, just crushed my heart.


But, then I realized, there will be many more bumps, and many more bruises. I will watch you bump a lot more. I will watch you scrape your knee. I will watch you cry over a broken heart. And mommy will always hold you and say... "shhh... it's okay Baby. Mommy's right here with you. Shhhh... Everything is going to be okay."


And then I will cry too.

Lil' D

It's too funny to watch you and Dallas together. When he was first born, you were only 5 months older than him, but you looked like a GIANT!

This is your first meeting of cousin Dallas...
Your first nap together...

You wanted to check out his crib, but then almost tried to squish him...

Just days after he was born...



You, Daddy and Uncle Dave with Dallas...



At Nonno's 65th birthday dinner (February, 2010). You were trying to help Dallas break out of his chair. He showed no interest...




Chilling out with Dallas (yup, he's chillaxin' bottom left hand side) at Uncle Dave and Auntie Alicia's house. He didn't care much about watching TV with you.


Watching the Olympics together...


A day at the park...
We've had AMAZING Spring weather this year. By March 1'st there was NO snow on the ground. A week or so ago, we took a trip to Bellevue Park with Dallas and your Aunt and Uncle. It was a great day! I'll let the photos tell the story...





Notice the bareless foot? How do you do it so fast!....


















My very favourite picture of you and Daddy together ♥


I look forward to all the ways the two of you will grow up together. ♥